Am so close…

I had the last portfolio review class (9 hours!) of my education career tonight. Needless to say with everything wrapping up, I am a bit emotionally and mentally exhausted. I always feel so conflicted heading into that class. There is a huge part of me that wants and needs the hard nosed unapologetic critique. And there is a hugely insecure, largely sensitive side of me that needs to be supported and told that I am doing well, and am going to be fine in the world of design. 

I don’t often get the latter from my professor. But there are times when he is sincere and shows a softer, more sincere objective critique. And maybe the planets aligned, but tonight he was the kindest and most positive he has ever been towards myself and my work. He slowly went through my portfolio page by page, with each project he seemed more and more interested in what I had created. The review was not without points where I need to improve, but mainly and most importantly he said:

That I have created a portfolio that is exceptionally strong. I have attacked each project with a quirky, unique point of view that will set me apart from other designers. 

I am so insanely proud of myself. 

SO. SO. SO. Proud. 

The next chapter of my life is just starting and I am so sure that is is where I have been meant to be all along. 

xoxo KDB

Got home at 3am this…

morning and was past the point of sleepiness, so I decided to watch Art & Copy, a movie I have been wanting to watch for the last couple months, anyways I did. Cool story I know, but I had this amazing epiphany.

I love design. It may be the most frustrating, heartbreaking, insecurity heightening thing I have ever been apart of, but it’s the moments wherein you have breakthroughs or get it right that makes it worth it.

I resolved to not let Mr. Dad-Jeans get to me. He is but a small blip on the radar, especially at this point. I refuse to give in, give up and let someone else shape my future. I love what I am doing, where I am going and no one can take that passion away from me.

xoxo KDB

PS. Duke vs UNC tonight. So excited.